"I talk to the pastor, I talk to the atheist/ Both of them said to me that life is what you make of it."
Life is a journey, one where choices sometimes make all the difference, and other times don't matter for shit. There are times where everything falls into place one minute, only to have that masterpiece crumble down to nothing the next. And it takes strength to pick yourself back up and try it again.
Some people never figure it out. They wander the Earth, aimless and without direction. We've all been there at one point or another. We feel lost. Alone.
Houston MC Kyle Hubbard has been there. According to him, he was a "fuck-up" in high school who lacked motivation and direction. He was a failure, and knows that he wasted too much time living that attitude.
Music has been an outlet for him since an early age. At 14, he began recording tracks in the closet of his house with a handful of friends. His first show was one of those Battle of the Bands gigs downstairs at Fitzgerald's when he was 20 years old.
"I was terrible," Hubbard admits.
For the next five years he kept at it, writing, producing, recording and performing. One of his projects was even named on a list of the Top 10 local releases of the year. Much of his music carried a bluesy vibe, with a gritty tempo and hard-biting lyrics.
But last year, Hubbard moved from Houston to Hot Springs, Ark. Although Houston will always be home, he felt his life needed a shift in focus. Away from the city, he says he finds peace, a slower way of life that is hard to come by here in the H. Away from past failures, legal troubles and, unfortunately, good Mexican food.
His focus is now on finishing his education, mastering in English so that one day he can become a professor, and maybe, just maybe, reach out to a kid who also feels lost and alone and on that dark path to failure.
"I want to one day intervene in that kid's life, snap him out of it," he says, "and hopefully help him avoid the bad stuff that I went through."
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"Everyone has an expiration date," Hubbard tells us. Which is why we are talking about him today. Kyle Hubbard's last performance ever will be tonight at Warehouse Live. Like we said before, most people never figure out what they want with life. But Kyle now knows what he wants, and although music will no longer be in the mix, it will always be a part of him.
"I'm not quitting," he says. "This is not retirement."
Hubbard simply wants to end the story on good terms, and share the moment with his friends. One last "hurrah!" before he applies the entirety of his efforts towards other aspects of life.
Life is what you make of it, and for Kyle Hubbard, now it's making sense.
Kyle Hubbard performs with Slick Rick, Roosh Williams and ACRE tonight at Warehouse Live, 813 St. Emanuel. Doors open at 8 p.m. We'll miss him.
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